Clarity/Confusion
Understanding/Acceptance
Pain/Pleasure
Bliss/Overwhelm
Wow/What the Fuck?!
Humans are so weird
This Universe is beautiful
Sound is an intense illusion
Smell is transformative
Love is the answer
Compassion for self, others – flaws and all
Existence/Being-ness is dependent on the doing/Participation in these convoluted structures and the earning of this false God – money.
How do we get back to worshipping, loving nature and acceptance that we are all part of this and in it together?
Belief rules our lives
What do I believe?
What can I trust?
I am able to nurture myself.
I can handle this.
It moves through me – shedding with ease
Our experience influences our reality and that of those around us
Respect
Courage
Headache
Physicality
Biological Needs and expressing them
Claiming boundaries and moving forward
With grace and ease
Finding the balance between going within and experiencing silence alone versus communing with others and widening the circles to increase connection
What a beautiful disaster we’ve signed up for here!
These vulnerable, profound, and semi-poetic thoughts flowed through me and into my journal the morning after my first Ayahuasca ceremony. To say that the experience was intense would be an understatement. As I continue to find meaning in what I learned, saw, felt, heard, and manifested, I know that I chose this experience for a reason.
I also believe that Ayahuasca chose me and that I was ready to heed the call and take the journey. I had heard a lot about it and was previously uninterested in trying it for myself. But how the medicine found me made me feel that it was time that I was brave, and I decided to tap into my courage and join in on this profound healing with six other incredible humans.
The following couple of thoughts came from a coaching session I had with my coach less than a week later:
The Intention to Experience Acceptance to a Greater Degree.
Allowing an Expanded Experience.
What I choose to allow is what I intend to put out in the Universe.
Here are some of the empowering choices I have decided to allow into my awareness:
I allow myself to accept myself fully.
I allow feelings to move through me without judging them or judging myself for having them.
I allow myself to feel my feelings fully.
I allow myself to be nurtured by myself when I’m feeling low.
I allow myself to honor myself when I’m feeling in my highest power.
I allow clarity to come to me as it will, and I am patient with the process.
I allow growth and lessons to come from all sources.
I allow myself to “release control and surrender to the flow of love that will heal me.”
I allow relationships to be reflections.
I allow clarity to be as it is, a part of my journey.
I allow others their own sovereignty, autonomy, and ability to be the expert in their own lives.
I allow myself to enjoy beauty in each moment.
I allow myself to indulge in things that make me feel good – the yum more than the yuck.
I allow myself to have boundaries around things that do not make me feel good – limiting the yuck.
I allow myself to feel gratitude for this life and all the joy and pain present in it.
I allow greater understanding of the events in my life to unfold naturally.
I allow myself to trust in the wisdom of uncertainty.
I allow myself the ability to breathe fully through every experience.
I allow the creation of happiness to be my choice.
I allow myself to reach out for help when I need it.
I allow myself compassion first, and then offer it to others as well.
If you are looking for a way to connect to your inner guru, schedule a discovery call with me to see if coaching is right for you. Or, if you’d like to learn about meditation, please join me for a meditation group and introductory class to experience and learn what this practice can do for you: this Sunday, April 7th at 3pm in Crystal River at the Paddletail Lodge.